What to do When They hate you

I fell for a guy. He hates me right now, which is retarded because I never did anything but like him---OKAY--no. I did the craziest things to this guy you will ever hear about and they all worked.

In another post I will give you my secrets, tell on myself and let you know what I did that worked. It didn't help make someone love me but it helped me feel I wasn't just standing by getting the emotional shit kicked out of me.

So, Currently Control guy hates me. I call him Control guy because everything he does has to do with control. He was abused and he went through horrors worse than my own. And i might tell you mine but I don't want to tell his, except to say it was so fucking bad and he is still sad and scared and I totally understand that.

But, he hates me. And when i try to talk to him and get him to not hate me, he threatens me. So, what I've learned is, he most likely cannot ever be in a relationship with me just because I'm too alive and ask too much and am too much. But, that doesn't mean I'm not great.

It just means, when he is irrationally hating me, it's not my fault and any letters saying I'm sorry actually make his hatred worse.

So, when they leave, let them. Say okay sister, see you later. Have nice life and I will too. You know the last time i said that after he told me I ruined everything he goes:
You didn't ruin it, I'm just messed up.

See? So, just do nothing.

Don't be crazy like me. Which means opening a ton of fake emails to contact them. Just forget about it for awhile. Let them hate you. It isn't even real. they think it is, but hate is just the flip side of love, it denotes the strongest feelings you can have. So literally don't care. Write to me here. Seriously. Say whatever it is. Just don't write to them.

In my next post I will tell you what to do to entertain yourself while they are gone.